Saturday, December 31, 2016

Unboxing 2016

"Now, as you celebrate that this product is going to expire real soon just remember it's actually humanity that makes things unbearably shitty."


Saturday, December 24, 2016

Take Shots

Just a reminder to everyone that I was in a music video this year. You can see my #SulfurSelfie at 1:19.


Saturday, December 17, 2016

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Anxiety

I saw this video earlier this week and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I'm a successful person. I have a wonderful son. I have a family (blood and not) that cherish and love me. I was the first in my family with a bachelor's degree and the the only with a master's degree. I work for an award winning and cutting edge library and I love my career. 
That doesn't stop the anxiety though. I always called the voice my Shadow (because I like fantasy and cope with things using it).

They don't really care about you. You're a waste. People just tolerate you. You're too needy. You're not a bad father. You're always going to be alone. You do more harm than good. Everyone would be better off if you just disappeared. 

Don't get me wrong. I know these things aren't true, but that doesn't mean the thoughts don't crowd my head. When I'm not focused on a task the thoughts get too loud.

I fidget. I chew on my fingernails until they bleed and are tender for days after. I play with my beard. I run my fingers through my hair. 

I break out in hives. Red bumps cover my skin. I itch. 

I blog. I blog a lot. I have this blog and a gaming one. In the past year, I've made over 200 posts on the gaming one. I talk about projects I'm going to work on. Great plans. Grand schemes. They're just a momentary distractions.  

I get fixated on things. I become obsessed with games or movies. I bug a friend about a cool idea that ultimately in the end we both know I probably won't follow through with.

But if I don't dream, hope, and try, then I go to a dark place that it's hard to come back from. 

But I'm fine. Always fine. Ask me how I'm doing, 75% of the time, you'll get a forced smile and "I'm fine." 

It's me. It's what I do. It's how I am.

I'm fine.

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Feel Good Jams - Dressed in Dreams

This song comes to my mind when I need a major change in my life. I feel one coming (hopefully sooner rather than later).
Where is the sun?
You're numb and, you're numb and dumb
Please, please I need the seeds of change
it's wearing a new dream
it's ripping at the seams
I've come undone
And there is one place left to run... And that is...

Never let yourself give in
When you're trying to start again
Put on your dreams and let's go

I've come so far and gone so, and gone so low
I've fallen in decay
Always try to find a way out and up to better days
Are waiting for me
And I will come dressed up in dreams

Never let yourself give in
When you're trying to start again
Put on your dreams and let's go

I won't give up at all
I want the freedom to dream the impossible
I will make it real

Monday, November 28, 2016

MCM - Dylan Marron

I am convinced that Dylan Marron is a perfect person. If he seems familiar, that's because I featured on of his Unboxing videos in a previous post. He's just a super charming, socially aware chap that's just a delight. He's also the voice of Carlos on Welcome to Night Vale.





Friday, November 25, 2016

Mikal kHill Digital Catalog - PWYW Until Monday



Mikal kHill has made his entire digital catalog (including things you can't find anymore) pay-what-you-want until Monday. Mikal is fam and a great dude. I interviewed him back in May. You can read that here.  Help my dude out this holiday season and support a few good causes (25% of what he makes during this time will be split between #NoDAPL and the Autistic Self Advocacy Network).



Thursday, November 24, 2016

Inspirational Captain America Art

This is a repost from Zack Dolan Art. These are his words, not mine, though I am in agreement with him and the sentiment behind this.


Hate has no allegiance to any party or person. Hate does not care who you are or where you're from or what you believe. Hate only appropriates these things for its own ends and uses the weak minded to spread itself disguised as political or religious beliefs. Hate does not need a reason, only an opportunity.

It's not about politics. It's not about who you voted for or what party you subscribe to. It's not about red or blue. It's about being a decent human being. it's that simple.

No one needs to be told their fears are unjustified by those who do not have to be afraid themselves. They need our Empathy.

No one needs to be told their lives are secondary to a political ideology or that there are bigger problems to worry about than their fear and pain. They need our Humanity.

No one needs virtue signaling platitudes or hollow gestures. They need our Action.

They need us to BE there. They need us to show them that there are still those who have not given in to hate or fear or despair that are ready to fight to make sure they don't have to either. They need us to step up on that line and stare right into the face of evil and hate and show them that we will not let it take away their hope, their rights or their lives. To show them that when they need us we will BE THERE to say "No further. Not Today."


Wednesday, November 23, 2016

WCW - Jessica Torres

Jessica Torres is a wonder to behold. She's a style blogger and body positive reporter for one of my favorite sites, Revelist.





Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Library Resource: Programming Librarian


I discovered http://programminglibrarian.org when a fellow manager recommended this article on the post-election library. The website was created by the American Library Association's Public Program's Office and it's phenomenal. It has programming for all types of libraries: public, school, academic, and special. You can search by age, budget, topic, program type, and library type. Since discovering this website I've shared it with everyone I know that would even been remotely interested, including teachers and people that just enjoy crafts and making things by hand. I figured For the Love of Pun would just be one more way to reach out and let others know.

Do you have any cool resources like this? If so, please share.

Monday, November 21, 2016

MCM - Joe Biden

Going to be honest, even before the pictures of young crazy uncle Joe surfaced, I thought Biden was a handsome older gent. I dig Joe because he seems like a legitimately nice guy. I've been a fan of Biden memes for a while, but the post election ones are a godsend. Seriously, check out Motivational Biden.










Sunday, November 20, 2016

Job vs. Career


I've heard quotes similar to this for a while and I think at this point in my life I believe it. I did a school visit a few days ago and after talking about out new after school snack program at the library, one of the teachers said, "I can tell you really love what you do. It always makes me smile when people love their work." She's right though. I really do love what I do.

To be honest, I became a librarian because I had a bachelor's degree in English and I didn't want to have to get a PHD to do something with my degree. The library thing was something I could do with just a master's program (plus I live in the Mecca of libraries, Ohio). However, I quickly learned while in school that I was passionate about what libraries do. I know that "knowledge is power" sounds cheesy, but it's true. Librarians are the unsung heroes of freedom of information and patron confidentiality.

I know that I don't always love my current position. To be honest, there are things I'm not 100% happy with that my system does. That being said, I have no doubt that I'm in the right field and I'm doing great work. I have big plans for myself and the communities I serve. I may not always love my job, but I have no doubt I have the right career. I'm a librarian and that's a great thing.


Saturday, November 19, 2016

Knotty Words


Looking for a unique gift? You should consider my friend Quill's adult colouring book, Knotty Words. It's not for the easily offended, but it is delightful.

I recommend fine point coloured pens with books like this because of the intricate detail.

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Eagles Are Turning People Into Horses: The Movie

Everyone needs a good laugh now and then. Please take 15 minutes or so of your time to enjoy this masterpiece.


Tuesday, November 15, 2016

Fight Like A Girl

I love the work of Emilie Autumn. She's a wonderful musician and actress. Today's she's giving away digital copies of her album Fight Like A Girl for free. 

From Emilie's Facebook page:
I am giving away my Fight Like A Girl album free today, so please take it and share it with someone you think it might empower.

Here is the download link: http://buff.ly/2fVw7kD

If you are scared, if you are sad, if you are hopeless, sing with me.

If you believe that sexism and sexual assault and racism and homophobia and climate change are not only real but that they are NOT good things (because to much of America they are all "just fine" things), sing with me.

Stay enraged, stay loud, and stay you.

One foot in front of the other.

~ EA


Elitism

Dylan Marron is a perfect person. I've been watching his unboxing videos on Seriously TV for a few months now. This one, in particular, hit home. It's really something to think about.


Monday, November 14, 2016

Lend A Hand

I've added a new tab to the blog. It's entitled Make A Difference and includes information about various organizations that work to make the world a better place.


Sunday, November 13, 2016

Self Care Isn't Selfish

In times like this it's always important to remember the importance of self care. It's not selfish to take care of yourself, it's the healthy and responsible thing to do, Here are some self-care tips that help me and those I love.
  1. It's okay to be sad, angry, and depressed. It's okay to scream. It's okay to cry. Just try not to dwell on it too much.
  2. Remember the basics. Drink plenty of water. Make sure to eat regularly. Try to get adequate sleep.
  3. Unplug yourself from the web. Take a break from Twitter and Facebook. 
  4. Get out and take a walk. Nature is beautiful and the fresh air will do you some good. If riding bikes is something you do, allow yourself to take a nice relaxing bike trip. 
  5. Exercise. Yeah I'm not the best at this one, but those endorphins will make you feel much better.
  6. Reach out to your support network. Hopefully you have someone, non-judgmental, you can talk to and vent. 
  7. Be creative. Draw, right, sing. Artistic endeavors can be great coping mechanisms.
  8. Treat  yourself. None of us are idle rich, but let yourself go out to eat and see a movie. Buy that new dress you've had your eye on. 
  9. Yoga and meditation helps. You can find all sorts of yoga instructional videos online. 
  10. Pray. I'm not the praying type, but if that's your thing go for it.
  11. Read a book. Exercising your mind is important.
  12. Watch a movie, listen to music. Let yourself zone out. 
  13. Laugh. You Tube is full of funny videos. I highly recommend this one
  14. Never underestimate the benefits of masturbation. Sometimes you just need some me time to get your head cleared.
  15. I know it seems silly, but adult colouring books are great. If you get the really intricate ones though, make sure to pick up some fine tipped colored pens.
  16. Finally if you're in a dark place and can't get out, seek help. You're not alone and you're strong than you'll ever know.
This is from the Knotty Words adult colouring book by my friend, Mathew "Quill" Vandeneynden

Thursday, November 10, 2016

In Fearful Day, In Raging Night....

I'm a geek and because of this I find ways to make the things I read and love applicable to reality. In the DC Comics universe there are individuals who possess rings of power associated with the core emotions. You've probably heard of Green Lantern (Hal Jordan) who his just one member of the Green Lantern Corps. These Lanterns are powered by Willpower/Force of Will (which for some reason is an emotion). There are Corps for fear, rage, avarice, compassion, love, and hope. That last Corps, the Blue Lanterns are my favorite. This is their oath.


The Blue Lantern Corps resonate with me deeply. Despite everything that happens, I have to be hopeful. If I'm not I go to a dark place. I've been there before and each time it's harder to come back. I have to remain hopeful. That being said, the Blue Lanterns are a relatively weak group on their own. Their primary function is to bolster Green Lanterns. Without Willpower, Hope can do little.

And that's it. I will be hopeful and work for a better future for not just my son, but everyone. However, I need support to do so. Well all do. We are still stronger together. Don't forget that.

 

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Moving Forward

I didn't sleep well last night. I had chest pains and my anxiety gave me several rashes. The nation (though it seems not the majority) have elected Donald Trump as president. Never in a million years had I thought this would be a reality.

There are things we can learn from this. There is a lot of ignorance and hate in this country still. Some of us have privilege, that often prevents us from seeing it first had, but it's there. I don't want to think that all of the ignorance stems from hate though. I think some of it is true ignorance (willing or not) at the plight of our fellow man. We need to educate these ignorant folks. We also need to help the disenfranchised and hurting. Unfortunately, I believe the group will be increasing over the next four years. Remember, when one of us hurts, we all hurt.

I'm taking these elections results as a call to action. I've tried to do my part to help others, but I know I could be doing more. Take care of yourself, take care of others, and let's all try to do better.

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

Vote!

If you live in the States and haven't already, get out there and vote. 


Monday, November 7, 2016

I Want To Be A Merman

Project Mermaids has added a plus-size merman to their campaign, actor Harvey Guillen.



Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Work

Hello folks, I didn't really post much last week because I was on vacation. Now I'm back and ready to go. Friday I interviewed the amazing folks of C*MAR. I'm working on isolating the audio from videos and posting it. I'm excited because the talk we had was quite inspiring. I can't say I'm as positive as I was when I started this thing, but I'm getting there. I've got things to do and places to be. They're only going to be a reality if I put in the work.

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

WCW - Pam Poovey

This may not come as a surprise, but I have a few fictional crushes. One of the biggest is Archer's Pam Poovey.  This Buzzfeed article does a perfect job of describing why I love Pam so damn much.




Thursday, August 18, 2016

The Good,

While I've been down this summer, it hasn't all been bad. Seriously, there were some awesome moments and good news.

My friends, the Hancocks, and I took a weekend trip to Charlotte, NC to attend the 10 year wedding anniversary party of my friend, Mikal kHill in June. I had a great time and got to see my #NoFriends fam.
Sulfur, Me, Mikal kHill, and Tribe One
My first blog (and pride and joy), Halls of the Nephilim finally reached 1000 post! I'm never going to make a full time living writing rpgs, but I can write about them as a hobby. I do create original material too. I've been looking at the DIY rpg scene and I think I'm going to try to break into it. That would be a dream come true.

I had a lot of time with my boy wonder this summer. I had him for a week at a time, every other week this summer. We visited with family a lot, got Lego Dimensions, and played a lot of Pokemon Go.


I had my annual medical check up. While my blood pressure and blood sugar are both concerned high normal... they're still normal. I'm also down 24 pounds from my last visit so that's cool.

Once I leave work Friday I don't have to come back until the 29th. I'm looking forward to the time off. I need a recharge.

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

I Got A Little Bit Longer. I Got A Ways To Go.

It's been almost a month since my last post. I don't like that. I created this thing as an outlet to stay positive, address issues, talk about things I enjoy, and keep my mind sharp and as soon as depression set in I neglected it. Last week my friend sent me this on Facebook:

She's right. I don't always like to admit that, but she is. I'm working on things. Trying to make it a little better. I may be a bit slowing getting back into the swing of things, but it's going to happen. Until then I'm going to listen to some positive tunes and try to keep my head up.

I got a little bit longer. I got a ways to go.

Monday, July 18, 2016

Who Ya Gonna Call?

I grew up watching The Real Ghostbusters, drank Ecto-Cooler, and played the the toys. The cartoon version of the Ghostbusters were always my Ghostbusters. I watched Extreme Ghostbusters when I could (even though I hated the "extreme" marketing, the series was good and a worthy sequel to The Real Ghostbusters). To be honest though, I didn't care for the original until I was an adult. Watching them now, I see a charming aspect of them I didn't when I was younger. 

Yesterday, I decided to go watch the new Ghostbusters film in 3D.

Spoiler alert: I absolutely loved it!
Kristen Wiig and Melissa McCarthy have a fun, believable chemistry together. I admit, I was a little worried about the character Patty (played by Leslie Jones). I think the trailers made her look like a loud black lady stereotype. She has a couple of moments, but her character is not just a caricature. She was a good insightful, grounded character. I think she was my second favorite. Kate McKinnon's Holtzmann stole the movie for me. Every single scene she's in, she's great. She is now my favorite all-time Ghostbuster. He lines, mannerisms, and everything are just always on point.

This movie received so much unnecessary hate. The original trailer has the dubious honor of being the most disliked video on Youtube. It's understandable if the humor just doesn't seem up someone's alley, but there have been concentrated efforts to discredit this movie before it was even released. Legions of geeks talking about how this movie  is  made for feminazis and has ruined their childhood. Let me just quickly say that if you seriously use the word feminazi in any way other than addressing idiots that use the word, I will be unable to take you seriously. Second, time just doesn't work that way. Don't believe me, check out this article. Honestly, I think the film's villain, Rowan, is the perfect embodiment of this entitled hate. Rowan is a very one dimensional. He's an outcast that feels he's been slighted and that the world owes him something. He almost never acknowledges any of the teams prowess and makes casually sexist comments. He's essentially one of the internet trolls that gave the film negative attention.

My only complaint about the film is that Chris Hemsworth's Kevin was soooooo ridiculously stupid. It was funny for a bit, but got a little old after a while. Still Hemsworth is a funny, gorgeous man.

The effects were fantastic (especially in 3D) and the laughs were good. I can't wait for the inevitable sequel. You should watch it soon. Also, make sure you stay to the credits.

Monday, July 11, 2016

MCM - Brendon Urie

I have a thing for vocalists, I don't deny it. This week's Man Crush Monday gent is Brendon Urie of Panic! at the Disco. Seriously, how could you not love this bisexual hunk?

He is such a cutie.
And devilishly handsome...





Sunday, July 10, 2016

Selfie Sunday - Throwback

I never really planned on posting old selfies, but this one has a special place in my heart. I took it last year on my way to Nashville (we were in Lexington at the time). I can honestly say this is the first selfie I ever took that I actually liked. This is the first time I looked at a picture of me and without hesitation said, "Damn, I'm a handsome devil."


Friday, July 8, 2016

My Favorite Pin-Up Goddess

This post isn't really any original content by me, I just wanted to direct you all to an amazing post of Fattitude written by my even more amazing friend, Sudzy. She talks about her body positivity journey and a photo shoot she did with Columbus based photographer, Laura Dark.

I feel I should also mention that Miss Sudzy is also starting her own business, Sudzy's Pin-Up Palace, and you can get updates on all of that via the following pages:

Website
Facebook
Twitter
Tumblr
Youtube
Google+

Thursday, July 7, 2016

Frankentoys

Do you remember Sid, that creepy kid from the first Toy Story? Do you remember his bizarre hodgepodge toys?
My first creation

These days people refer to them as Frankentoys. I've found that it's a perfect craft for my fellow millennials:

It's fun, cheap, and bizarre.

Seriously though, Frankentoys are easy to make. Just take some broken toys and make them into something new using needle and thread and/or glue.

I recently did a horror themed teen summer reading program that I called Teen Screams. We discussed two sentence horror stories, how to make ghost photographs, made a zombie escape plan for the library, and crafted Frankentoys. While the program was a success overall, the Frankentoys were the biggest hit. There's just something about destruction and creation. It's something that's rewarding, regardless of age. This can be a fun family craft too.


Wednesday, July 6, 2016

WCW - Aisha Tyler

I *heart* Aisha Tyler. She's a phenomenal actor, comedian, director, and activist. She's also a total gamer and that makes her even cooler in my book. 

I loved the Drew Carey run, but Aisha is a fantastic host on Whose Line Is It Anyway?

If you haven't read this, do so now.

Lana Cain... Yup.